Where am I???

I know I have been slacking from my Blog. Very aware of that since I have gotten several hate emails from readers saying that I am not being a very good blogger. I promise to get back into it. This Summer just has been the worst Summer ever and has left me with no inspiration to write anything. I feel that there is nothing worth sharing and I would just bore all of you hence no posts.

I will try my best to get interesting again so that there is something worth reporting. Starting this week. I promise.

Update!

Just got word that he is out of surgery and doing fine. Doctors say that they were able to remove all of the cancer and that he did well. He should be waking up in about an hour or so. Hopefully will get to talk to him then. Thank you for all the prayers!

Today's the Day!

Today is surgery day!!! Any prayers, positive thoughts and any good vibes that can be sent down to Shreveport and to my family today would be much appreciated. He will be in surgery for 3 hours. I will let everyone know how it goes.

Thanks so much!!!

The "C" Word

Two days ago I was hit with a phone call that changed my life. A call that made me realize that none of us are invincible. The Cancer bomb was dropped on me and I am not sure how to deal. It's a word that no one is prepared to hear and it basically is looked upon as a death sentence. It makes you just want to give up and realize that as healthy as you may be and as smart as you may think you are cancer does not care and can strike anyone at anytime. It really doesn't care who you are.

Just for no one to worry, it's not me. It's a family member that doesn't want to not make a big deal about it and doesn't want to have too much attention drawn to himself. But seeing how right now I need all the prayers and positive thoughts send in that direction I feel the need to blog it out. It's prostrate cancer and it's at the very early stages so it's going to be treatable. There will be surgery on the 13th so I need everyone sending positive thoughts that day.

It seems like recently this "C" word has been around me for a while, just not in my immediate family. 4 out of 5 of my closest girlfriends have been dealing with this as well. They have not been so lucky though. One friends dad died last year and the other 3's are terminally ill. So you can imagine when I got this call how I would take the news. It seems to be a very common thing and all men should be aware of this.

I have been on this positive thinking brings positive results kick and it seems to be working. This is just testing me and making it tough. But for my family I will be as positive as I can be. I believe that he will be ok and that he will beat this with no problem. I will tell myself that every day. There is no other option in my book. 

So what I am asking you as friends and readers is that you tell EVERY man in your life, no matter what their age, to go get checked. This obviously is common think and 1 out of 6 men will get it. Odds are, you will know someone or several people who will get this. Also, I am asking you to please pray/send positive thoughts, whatever you may do, to my family especially on the 13th. 

Thank you ahead of time!!

Some people...

So my roommate went out with this guy one time. One time months ago. It was a pretty lame date, as I recall. He sent this to her today to ask her out again. He is so full of himself it makes me sick. This is the typical over 40 but thinks he is way younger NYC guy.

He's "Given up on the written word" but yet he was on his way to go "do some writing". Way to contradict yourself fool.

After he sent this he found out that she has been seeing a mutual friend of his. So he sends her a "break-up" email that says:

 

Hey,

Bumped in to Tom Ruff after I sent the vid earlier. He mentioned that you guys have been seeing each other and are together now. No worries. He's a great guy. But, obviously, we can't see each other anymore. Strict rules about such things. Just so you know, I didn't mention that we were dating. 

Good Luck!

E

They went out ONE time!!! Why is it that women get labeled as the crazy ones when there are men out there like this? This isn't the first time one of us has been "broken up with" without even dating a guy. 

Some men are insane!! This for sure is one of them!

I get by with a little help from my friends....

Just wanted to say THANK YOU to all my blog readers and friends who have contacted me for the past 2 weeks. I know I have been vague with what's going on but you were able to still figure it all out. Friend intuition I guess.

Was dating this amazing man who I felt really strongly about and thought that everything was perfect all to find out that it was so not perfect and that I was being lied to for over a month. Just another heartbroken break up.  I'm used to them by this point (pity party I know). It's tough. But I am ok. I have great friends who have listened to me talk about it and give me their advice, which usually includes them being allowed to kick him in the family jewels the next time they see him. I haven't told them that they can do that but I also haven't told them that they can't. They are grown women so what they do when I'm not around is totally up to them. I just hope he figures things out and can become the man I feel that he really is.

On a different note, so much has been going on as it normally does in the Spring time. We have had engagement parties, birthday parties and just fun hey let's hang parties night after night after night. I have had no time to sleep, eat and think about anything else other than having fun with my friends. I am having a hard time finding time to exercise but since I have had no time to eat it all works out in the end. (Disclaimer: It is not healthy to not eat. I know this. I know. It's not on purpose)

This weekend my parents and the Bakers are coming in town so I will be busy with them not to mention having to fit in another birthday party, engagement party and a welcome to Summer party. I plan to be surviving on coffee the next few days. 

I wasn't planning on traveling this Summer but I am itching to get on a plane. Where should I go??? I have another opportunity to go back to Italy in September but not sure if I can wait that long. Maybe I will go somewhere before and still hit up Italy in the fall. SO who's with me? Who wants to go? 

Celeb update: I see Harry Potter every Sunday morning in my neighborhood leaving from what looks like a rough night of partying. He is always in a black leather jacket and skin tight jeans. He is also a tiny little short man, not too much taller than me. It's always interesting. 

Ok, that's enough from me today. Hope you all have a great week!

Trust

Being my mothers daughter and being raised in a Christian home I was always taught to trust people until you are given a reason not to. That there is good  in everyone and it is up to them how they use it. So growing up into my teen age years I was starting to get a taste of my trust being taken advantage of. Of course it was only little relationship break ups, your best friends lying to you about if that bow looking good in your hair or weenie boyfriends kissing other girl. Nonetheless it was a sample of your trust in someone being broken. 

Later in life and after rounds and rounds of broken hearts and back stabbing you start to develop a shell around yourself. The lesson that I was taught about trusting others until they give you a reason to not trust them starts to fade. The relationships start getting more important and your life takes on a new purpose as you begin to think about your future. Trust begins to be one of the most important keys to any relationships you have therefore making you keep watch on who has it. 

Now, after years of disappointment in people my trust life lesson has turned into DON'T TRUST ANYONE until they give you a reason to. That everyone will break your heart in one way or another. That everyone is only looking to better themselves and could care less about the outcome of you. Ya, I know this is a hard way to live but I am starting to realize that it's the only way I will survive.My shell has developed into a vault that only certain people get a key to.

There is still that little girl in me that does trust people and think that they have my best interest at heart. Deep deep down. But as soon as I let my guard down I am reminded why I had it up in the first place. 

When you loose trust for someone the next phase I am taught is forgiveness. What I get mixed up now is forgiveness with being naive. Is forgiving someone for misleading, hurting, being dishonest, lying to you just being naive? And when is that line crossed that there is no forgiveness left? Does it depend on how much you love someone?

You would think after 35 years of life you would have something like this figured out but what I am starting to realize is that in every situation when my trust is tested I respond and react in different ways which makes it hard for me to know exactly what I should and should not do. This is when I wish I could be 13 again and run home to my mom and dad and tell them to fix it. But seeing I'm not I am left with having to figure it all out on my own. Of course I have great friends to help, all giving different advice of course, which only seems to confuse me more. Good thing there is Google. - "Can you trust someone ever again after they loose your trust" has actually been typed into the search engine.